Friday, August 15, 2014


How is it now?

A bit better.

It's better when we have a little time together.

But really, he has lots of other priorities, and I have trouble with that.

I'm supposed to be sweet and submissive and accepting and I struggle with it.

I want to be his priority.

This will shock him when he reads it. He'll think, "but I thought we were great. Wtf does she want? She's so demanding."

And you know, I am. I expect great things.

I want to be the priority, not the last thing on the list.

I want to be the most important thing in his life.

And I'm not sure I can live with being the 22nd best.

So that's how we are. A bit better. Not openly fighting.


  1. No one wants to be 6th fiddle.


  2. And so... you begin again. To define priorities. Yours. His are outside of your control. I hope you can find a way to something that is good for you.

  3. Sheesh, i've started about 10 responses to this and keep deleting cause they just don't sound right. So i'll just send good energy your way.


  4. So, a new man, a new relationship you can cause angst and pain in, what kind of person are you, I guess it's all about you!